~!phew-its_WEek3nD::

hmm... hi there.. its juz the end of the 1st week of SCh.. its really been tiring.. at first i thought that i could last the whole week thinking *hey it wont be so tiring man.* but day in day out of thinking.. can REally kill u man.. i was at bowling training yesterday and i felt like shit man.. like really everything was like going off for me man.. haha.. but then, my presentation skills seem to be improving and it seems.. that my class is really bonding really well.. haha oh well too tired to think of anything right now.. so i think i write again soon.. and i gotta cure the problem with my brain driftinh off alot.. its starting to drive me nuts

-Vm

wads uP!!^^??

hmmm its like.. a few months when onli a few days have passed... but they all passed after i've learnt something and not without much FUN!. haha man think many ppl missed out if they did not enter Rp man.. haha its cool.. i've learnt to really appreaciate other races which i tot i was really frenly with.. now i'm better.. haha much much better.. ahaha okok.. cuz my class is really mixed... haha and like the world really turns.. man.. if we are going to change classes at the end of the semester.. i'm going to kill the Principal man.. i like my class now.. i really dont wanna change my class...its made out of really happyz ppl.. but some ppl are still really shy man.. haha maybe they aint my kinda ppl that luvs to communicate.. haha oh well its kinda boring to do RJs everyday man.. sad sad.. haha sorry guys of my groups but i really go into truth to judge u whether u performed well anot so PLS do not blame each other if u get aint that good grades. hmm.. nothing bout u ok shafiq.. haha u performed pretty well at tasks ok.. but u gotta speak up in presentation times.. and when i ask who wanna do wad, go for it.. cuz when i want things organised, i want ppl to stand out (besides me...).. i want the whole group to improve instead of onli me... even though sometimes the presentation might not be really prepared, dont care man.. haha take wad we got and shoot it.. believe urself to make things sound real to others... OMG.. i've really drifted.. oh well.. haha my mind's been drifting alot lately.. sometimes when i wanna write something like words on the com.. i end up writing alot of things different.. this is not good.. ahaha neeeddd to concentrate.. haha oh well..

to be someone you gotta take trust in yourself and show what u have got
-Vm

here i am in this J@!L H0u53

its tuesday here. and time seems to pass really slow.. although i may like it to stay that way.. cuz school seems to be soo soo fun.. since i met a certain fren.. yup.. haha it really seems weird man.. haha hope she forgets my blog add.. so she cant access and see all those stupid things i've written in here.. but she say's she wanna noe me better.. anyway.. i dont noe if its true now.. but i need a fren to go out with to lunch.. blah blah.. ya.. since sy and daryll are in diff class anyway.. haha wanna like have at least one good fren in RP. haha sounds weird man.. but i'm really starting to like her.. haha but she's really too nice to a stranger.. haha..(to say the truth.. she's kinda cute too.. and really blur and scared at the same time..) haha oh well.. haha learnt lots bout blood today... maybe at times too overwhelming but it seems that having a dictionary near u or on your com comes really useful at times man.. haha so oh well.. haha understood wad's really in us today.. haha hope that my grades is good.. haha... my presentation was not bad too.. ok ok.. haha too boastful... abt her.. she was really nervous too.. haha cuz we really did not prepare really well.. oh well.. it tested our ability to think on our feet too.. haha my facilitator is really great to make us learn soo many things in juz one day.. haha.. oh yeah.. she was in the same team as me today too.. wad luck!! haha oh well i muz have prayed too hard last night.. got from group 5 to 1.. but haha.. its ok.. haha.. i dont noe abt wad's happening in my life right now.. but my horoscope says things will still be this messy in my love life.. haha but i'll like it.. haha wadever that means.. hmm.. itss really been a while since i posted something here.. haha so i think i really need to write a lot man... haha oh well.. today wasted money man.. haiz.. wanna save $$ so next time can spend.. haha like maybe go out for a movie with my classmates.. haha(wan?? i can treat a bit la) <

oh well think i wrote enough for one cuz it might take like ages to up load it.. so.. haha CYAz and take care... WORLD PEACE!!(read it like i mean it, cuz i do!)

~ambitions are dreams with a V8 engine.
-elvis presley
-Vm

its TMR!!!!!

hi.. there those that read.. hmm its 10pm in my world and like school will be starting tomorrow.. gotta meet new frens again tmr.. haha lol i realised that my class has alot of ppl one year older den me.. so can be considered young.. haha wadever.. hope they'll be real friendly man.. i have that same feeling that i'll not make that much friends.. like that day on my FOP.. yup sch starts at 830 each day man... and like i gotta wake up at like 630 each day.. haiz.. really wanna study at NP now... haiz.. cant they like inform us sooner.. haiz man.. wasted money.. so i think that my life can and should return to normal soon..

haiz.. i still cant boWl well.. and i aint happy for it.. haiz.. yup those that see this.. and play gb.. add me: vmouse i'd like to noe u guys and gers.. haha so long

haha... i'm in sch and i'm doing this::

hi there.. haha oh well i've got my computer yesterday.. haha its looks kinda cool.. and the bag that comes along with it looks cool too. haha.. i'm at my computer orientation haha.. and i think i have time to do this.. my facilitator looks kinda cool too.. he has lots of things to share though... haiz.. i'm getting kinda bored now.. juz ate my lunch.. haha at my new sch.. haha its ok.. oh well it aint ex.. so its fine.. i'm now with sy and daryll.. haha... hmm i think i might be giving up on my dreams.. and love too.. i really dont noe wad's happening.. i think that i really want to enter np too.. although Rp kinda cool haha.. there's kinda like a file sharing system here.. hhaha.. ooohh...cool!!

oh yeah thanx for that comment from that anonomous person that left me that msg.. i thought abt it.. and ya.. it helps.. haha ohh.. well.. hmm i wonder if the things that i do ever work.. so it seems to me.. haha. haiz... love really doesnt work man.. haha lol oh well... the IT teacher very IT savvy man... haha.. ssee you when i reach home...

hey i forgot about tuesday!?!

oh well i think tuesday was kinda weird to begin with.. (anyway its weds night here in my country) haha... went fot that orientation thing for my polytechnic... and it really seemed that i am really scared.. haha to begin off.. i got like a number of frens in that sch that i noe(u can use one hand to count) haha.. when entering that sch i was like trembling a bit... haha trying to contain my fear.. din msg her too haha... msged my other frens haha.. but onli the one in my same sch replied la.. haha.. clara onli replied in the afternoon... haha... yup went in to register... and it was like my whole course had 250 students.. haha din noe why.. i really became timid.. and lazy at the same time to make frens.. haha saw this rather pretty ger... haha poor thing she dressed in like a spagghetti(spelling error) top and when we entered class for pre-class training.. haha it was like freezing..i was shaking already man.. cant imagine things for her.. haha... too bad din get to noe her.. LAZY wanted to juz la back and slack... but den i had to volunteer for my group to do the pbl.. haha and hell was it FUN.. haha my group was like cold cold in the beginning.. but i think i manage to spur some spirit into the group.. so wadeva.. haha really slack la.. haha ...

oh well today.. the orientation kinda continued.. i was supposed to go..(if u get me) haha it was sports today.. games and stuff.. haha too tired to do anything so i was like umm i don really wanna go.. but i heard that most of the girls and better mannered guys are going.. haha...come to think of it.. i think i'm afraid of those guys that aren't well mannered.. kinda hate them.. oh well... hope i don get them in my class for the first week.. that is if the results come out before or during that.. haha.. hopes and dreams i wish they all come true.. haha

gonna go collect my new laptop tmr.. fujitsu 2020r... haha its like s$2033.. cuz my sch's selling it.. it looks cheap.. too.. but WTH.. its better den i don have one of my own... haha.. hope its good den..

oh..man i feel lonely today...

-Vm gotta go!!

its a new day

its monday... and this is like the last day i have to be really free.. there's some orietation thing tmr at my polytechnic.. hope that it'll be kinda fun and that i'll be able to enjoy part of it... haha...its gonna like last till the later part of the day so i hope i can make some new frens too.. haha oh well.. wadever life brings i'm gonna take it...

i think i feel much better tha last night or day... cuz i realized that somethings i want i may not get.. anyway i think she aint that pissed with me or anything..(or so i hope) cuz i asked her yesterday... debz also msged me yesterday... and asked me if i'm mad at her... (ok she muz have done something really bad.. wait fer her to see this first) what did she do bad.. and its like starting to make me feel really paranoid already... haha.. o well... i dont noe what should i do man.. abt somethings.. its always hard for me to say what i wanna say and i dont noe if she ever takes me serious after i say it.. it seems like i got some kinda look that makes ppl dont trust whatever i say....

u ever got the feeling that some words that u use can haunt u? i had that.. that stupid word 'wadever' keeps appearing.. i used it in the last post.. and my frens even those that didnt read it kept like using it.. wicked man.. and its kinda scary too..

-Vm

the party

oh... it all went well for the party at ZHI's place... haha too bad.. onli a few amount of ppl came and.. there was onli one present that was mine la.. man i made a grave mistake in believing somethings that i shouldnt have and i think that made that person i kinda like angrier by THIS bit more.. man wad am i supposed to day.. it onli makes me wonder why did i get all those tots abt wads happening and why did i go and think abt it when i have already asked her myself.... all these thoughts are now ringing in my head and i noe that there's onli this slim slim chance for me to recover that small image of goodness i had in her.. i noe that the fact that she wont read this anyway but i really feel sorry bout the misunderstanding cuz she really seemed pissed bout it.. man... wad am i doing anyway i'm still at ZHI's place.. hahah stayed overnight... couldnt sleep cuz of all those bloody irritating tots.. man.. this shit that i dragged myself into is really getting worse and i hope that i make it up to her someday... but i reallly juz got that feeling that.. the day i'm waiting for would not come.. haiz... is one thing to love and it one other thing to be loved aint it.. i onli got the first and the latter seems to be.. so shockingly far... when i get so close to her.. it seems that she's so far away... but thanx anyway.. i think i've learnt the feeling of hate.. think i'm too dizzy now to continue.. i dont even know what am i writing.. it seems so messed up... cuz maybe i am.. wadever... that's wad she said..one word in one msg yet to me it meant so much.. it told me so much.. on how she felt.. man thanx for making me feel like this.. making me feel like shit.

-Vm

::man what a friday::

hmmm... morning... i just realised something funny.. about my previous postings the date and time of the postings where totally off.. lke maybe 16hours.. cuz the auto time post follow's the US timings which is like gmt-8 while in singapore .. our gmt is like +8 haha.. oh weelll i'll make sure this is correct.. i realised that i'm kinda funny too when ppl post their blogs mostly in the night when everything has finished.. i do it in the morning.. yup... WEIRD huh.. yesterday i got myself a laptop... but i gotta go collect it next week.. haha so i'll stop using my sis laptop that i've gotten so used to in typing.. haha (i'm using her's right now...) haha shh... yesterday i also got NAGGED at by my mom again for not bowling well... oh well what could she expect... i'm kinda getting really lazy in doing somethings... but i was trying my best.. to get the feeling of the ball leaving my fingers wad... haha.. oh well.. anyway i don really have any really good frens those that i REALLY can trust.. i feel threatened sometimes by the fact that they can back stab me.. oh well.. today's saturday already.. so i'm going to my fren's ZHI hao's place to have STEAMBOAT with the other ppl he's invited.. hope its not called a party man haha.. (STEAMBOAT if it was a barbeque i'll probably think otherwise la.. BUT ... STEAMBOAT..) oh well i heard that today's gonna be onli interactors.. so i hope that'll make it a FUN bunch of ppl.. haha i also got a gift for him.. haha but it looks like there's be lotsa ppl sharing this gift(which i hope will not happen) cuz its kinda funny that a bunch of like 6-10 ppl sharing one gift.. aint it.. haha oh well going there later.. i hope i can give u guys good news of how it went man but i'm already fearing the worst..(i'll get to that).. cuz i hope i wont need to see that one person that i really liked in the past.. cuz i hate to remember things from the past.. so hope all goes well :D see ya

-Vm

!*!MORNING!*!

morning..i can barely see what i'm writing now.. oh man.. its like 9:38 in the morning and i'm still like this. oh welll... there's no breakfast for me today.. lazy to go make my own so i'll wait till lunch when i really gotta move my butt from this so uncomfortable chair to make me some pasta.. haha.. today's gonna be a busy day for me man.. got a badminton game with my frens and straight after that i got a meeting with my volunteering group.. haha.. man this is boring.. hah.. oh ya i'm now downloading anime.. i suppose its legal cuz its not licenced(oh man my english is getting reallly bad) yet... haha.. its naruto.. yup 127-128.. anyway i've found a person that i'm willing to like.. and i hope that she'll feel the same too.. haha i might be pushing somethings too fast ( so.. gomen.. if she is reading this la).. don noe why i like to rush things so much. haiz.. haha... cant talk too much here.. haha it aint safe.. anyway i'm a very cautious person and like to keep many things in the dark. haha thats when i feel that things can be much more fun. haha.. maybe its just me.. well i don think that she knows that i really am starting to like her.. she might still think that i'm joking with her but i dont noe.. she's saving her smses now so i dont really noe wad she thinks haha... she always think that she aint that pretty but guess wad she's kinda cute and has a very unique personality when she gets angry or frustrated... haha.. i kinda like that... oops.. haha talked too much bout HER... haha oh man... but oh well my frens wont know her... haha so ya... that's the person i like *blush*... yup hahaha :D.. so ya.. gtg now... haha see ya hopefully tmr.. i guess

its ME *again?!?!*

oh well back from breakfast..(like i had anything worthy of eating).. my life is full of mishaps and unluck events. oh well i'm a virgo(it looks like my year aint gonna be filled with love anyway) and yup love is the only thing that i have expirenced it only once. ANd i most likely wanna find it again. however.. the joke is that i feel that i have a very faint heart. sure i can commit to one relationship but even before i get into one.. i lose interest. maybe its just me but however i think that person i wanna get always gets away from me.so maybe that's the reason.. whenever i think that the right person comes around..it seems that she's connected in one way or another. and to make it worst, my words seem to become reality and its really making me mad. maybe i'm just not fit for loving.(like if i ever like another person again) .. it seems that its starting to take its toll on me cuz whenever i take time off to think about my life, it seems that i miss out on my soccer frens activities.(sorry guys i noe u guys are mad but my position is really daunting for me so i neeeddd that extra time for myself). haha..oh well today's my friend's birthday and he's having a 'party' on saturday(man really wat kind of party is it when u gotta cook ur own food in water?!?!) haha oh well he's my fren anyway. oh.. ya i'm a volunteeer too now still volunteering and guess wad i'm still young.. haha REALLY barely reaching twenties tooo.. haha sshhh.. haha is really great at times to help others but i dont think i can realy do that now(really if i cant help myself how can i help others..*oh man something serious must be done man and quick its getting too big to be ignored* )... my temper's getting shorter too.. hmm i can hardly control it. nvr felt this way for a very long time.. (really i only felt that way while wrestling my PRIMARY sch frens backstage in the hall during recess).. the feeling that i wanna punch someone so hard that i'll feel the pain too. (MAN this is WEIRD..) think i gotta noe myself better cuz then i can know others better.. (think my entrees for most of my blogs arent gonna be lame anymore.. its gonna be otherwise.. really dark kind.. that is if i can really express myself properly.. what u are reading now is only the beginning and yet is scaring me already.. by writing so much.. haha oh i mean by my way of expressing myself hahah so see ya.. i'll be back tmr.. ya i hope today it'll be a better day(cuz i aint leaving my HOUSE until tmr) *its a house and not a home yet cuz when u dont belong here, u're nvr connected to it and its juz a place for u to stay in and to use its facilities only and nothing more or less*

-Vm

HEY ITs ME!!

haha hi.. i am vm oh well.. blogging is kinda new to me so forgive me if kinda be too boring and lame at times. i was going to get a journal or something but it seems that it'll waste me too much time and its not like my handwriting is really very nice. man i really wanna complain to blogger cuz i took like 1/2 and hour to get this bloody account oh well.. at least now i have one. hmmm haha ya... feeling quite sad bout the recent things that happened. like the pope and the bombings and the earthquake thingy. anyway if u are reading this.. u are kinda smart or otherwise.. cuz i think this would be the hardest address to guess out in the world.. with two '-' haha.. oh well.. that's to expect from a person like me. ok... some of u will most probably(think i spelled that right?) know me. oh well for all those strangers out there(as if u were my frens or like i'll ever meet you) i'm william... YESH a guy.. oh weellll yup that's life and mind you i go for girls so i'm straight... (literally) and not very tall(1.75m only) ok... haha my frens say i'm friendly, lame, irritating, generous, shy, gutsy and disgusting. (well i dont noe how to believe them when all of those triaits contridict(think i speelled that right?) each other. so well i'm not that handsome nor ugly.. i'm JUZ ur regular boy next door.. (but i think i got spilt personalities too) so beware of every william cuz it could be me.. some idiot making useless 'noise' in my first posting.. oh well i needa get something to eat now.. haha YUP i haven eaten anything for breakfast yet... haha oh well now i noe how it feels to talk to the wall..(but guess wad.. i think this might work out for me since i cant really communicate that well). haha i'll be back(i hope *gulp* ya...).. man why am i saying this... who's reading this.. man..(*lonely*) man its always creepy in the MORNING

-Vm