the party

oh... it all went well for the party at ZHI's place... haha too bad.. onli a few amount of ppl came and.. there was onli one present that was mine la.. man i made a grave mistake in believing somethings that i shouldnt have and i think that made that person i kinda like angrier by THIS bit more.. man wad am i supposed to day.. it onli makes me wonder why did i get all those tots abt wads happening and why did i go and think abt it when i have already asked her myself.... all these thoughts are now ringing in my head and i noe that there's onli this slim slim chance for me to recover that small image of goodness i had in her.. i noe that the fact that she wont read this anyway but i really feel sorry bout the misunderstanding cuz she really seemed pissed bout it.. man... wad am i doing anyway i'm still at ZHI's place.. hahah stayed overnight... couldnt sleep cuz of all those bloody irritating tots.. man.. this shit that i dragged myself into is really getting worse and i hope that i make it up to her someday... but i reallly juz got that feeling that.. the day i'm waiting for would not come.. haiz... is one thing to love and it one other thing to be loved aint it.. i onli got the first and the latter seems to be.. so shockingly far... when i get so close to her.. it seems that she's so far away... but thanx anyway.. i think i've learnt the feeling of hate.. think i'm too dizzy now to continue.. i dont even know what am i writing.. it seems so messed up... cuz maybe i am.. wadever... that's wad she said..one word in one msg yet to me it meant so much.. it told me so much.. on how she felt.. man thanx for making me feel like this.. making me feel like shit.

-Vm