Oh god... i'm almost 18.. please man.. i dont need a leash already.. i know my rights and wrongs!!

my sis's bf is coming back tmr.. and oh well.. what can i say she muz be happy i guess.. just real angry after not being out any later.. its just 11.30!! maybe.. ya i'm so getting to my limit.. i'll just hold on a little longer.. till my legal age perhaps. I guess what's wrong is that i dont really enjoy my time i guess. being home alone, is always too much..

So what i'm doing is that i'm going to not talk to my mother that much i guess.i'll get my scolding after that.. but perhaps i'll enjoy my life better. having too many controls is like no good one bit at all. That time i almost bought a book titled "am i a control freak" for my mom's birthday gift. but i guess i bought NOTHING instead.. perhaps u might see it as bad.. but really she's like this xray machine i have to get through everytime i go out with my friends.. but it was so much looser when i had a closer girl-friend.. she really loosened her grip on me but still there was this grip. that's why i long for a friend like that. yea.. no more close fren. means that bloody woman's grip on me is back..

its so sickening..

i want freedom...
i want a life...