Hmm went out to book badminton court with da jie today...
met her at delta at 215 like that...
yups.... and went out after that.. and i cant believe that people have already booked nearly all the courts man shit...

HMmm den went out with her man... haha first time out alone with da jie... LOL really like da jie lo..
Hmmm bought shuttle cocks for friday liao...ok?? (fiqie)
yups Hmmmm... and watched Red Eye with da jie too haha LOL hmm oh well... IDIOTIC man... its so boring... haha its not that scary... Hmmm yups... i wanna watch skeleton key le...

Hmm din msg her today... resisted it so much... that i hadnt eaten anything since breakfast... except those nachos.. i had in the theatre...

Hmmm realised that i really miss her... its too much man... wanted to talk to da jie about it... but... it just couldnt come out... stuck inside... as i supposed... Yups...

Hmmm just hope that she can stand this with me... cuz... i'm fickle minded yes... but its all because... its all because.. i hadnt fallen for some one so deeply for so long... KK i admit it... i like people damn easily... i like them like in a snap of a finger... But for me to like them whole heartedly, I... onli had this once... and ... it din end up right... so... i'm afraid of manythings now... and... i'll try to tell u all these k... its not that i like recalling up my past but... i'll let u in.. on this... yes.. i'll do that...

I know.. i'm a guy that had too many chances and to me u are a person that made me realise that opening up again might feel good... might feel as happy again...

Today... i really saw no one that i could approach when i had problems... and u just kept popping up in my mind... though u arent in the mood right now... i just kept thinking of u..i tried thinking of watching movies alone again... and... i dont want that feeling again... I really dont want to end up like that again... watching movies alone...its just so ccold.....

sometimes feeling warmth again might make u fear of the heat... but as it cools... u might really wish that u had that warmth... and to me u are it.. u got frens that understand u.... understand how u work.. that understand when u need help... but i onli can open up to the person closest to me... and that means u... but... u got ur troubles already... and opening up now... is just really going to irritate u...

the things i do at times... is to protect me.. sometimes.. it wont hurt as bad if there aint much contact.. But it seems that i'm breaking apart the more i dont contact u... but contacting u equally tears me apart cuz i cant seem to cheer u up any better...



I feel useless.. maybe i am..