kicking the habit

Hmmm haiz... what a boring day... ok... wait... for the first time,i have nothing to say.. haha.. nothing to talk about.. when i searched all my mind for things to talk about.. but nothing came out lo... so nvrm.. sorry babe.. baby tired la.. cant think too.. haha u need rest too k? haha u sound real tired.. ya?

Anyway... ya promised er jie to talk about it.... so shall put it simply ya... Hmmm as i said in my last post... i did something real stupid and bad.. and so, i did not know how to say sorry.. cuz the reply i got was 'nvrm' i never did feel secure with that.. so.. i kinda went nuts... i hurt myself again.. in the only way that i knew that would make me bleed... but don worry it isnt as deep as what i did before... 3 times only... but so.. i kinda used a lot of force... think the blade was rusty too... haha think i almost fell sick on sunday... ya... and it din bleed that much to my surprise... haha LOL weird.. anyway.. ya... its not deep.. ya.. and my sis kinda saw it today... haha and i said that i cut myself... (haha i din lie la.. its the truth mah) guess my mom gave me that weird look too... haha suggesting if i was alright.. haha i din look at her at all lo... haha

Hmmm ok back to where i left off... ya... its kinda healing right now... so mostly.. u see me wearing my band over my left too.. to cover it... haha weird right ... haha last time.. i used to cut for fun i guess and one time... i kinda like soaked up one whole tissue with blood haha lol... weird lo.. haha nvr told anyone this except...mich la..which i juz knew that she is reading this... i'm sorry k? haiz... but i cant really help it.. anyway... will continue tmr... gtg now.. yups ..bye