I feel so insane...
everything that i do seems to fall in vain..
trying too hard i am...
maybe... i dont know what to think...

sorry if i should not have appeared...
sorry if you didnt hope for me to appear..
i tried not to appear... i tried... ok...
sat there... alone... on the beach for 5 hours. yeah... this is my own doing... i noe... sat there.. doing nothing... reading articles over and over again... seeing people walk past me... yes... i noe... this is one shit head... yup... i am one... but i'm ur shit head...

sorry if i'm too obsessive...
sorry... if i wish to see u...
sorry... i just aint fit for u i guess... i dont know why... i could just sit there... doing nothing...
test of will? no... i thought of renting a bike... but.. din... wanted to walk.. wanted to hurt myself... till the time when i was about to leave... when i asked if u wanted the coke... i was free.. planning to roam the rest of the city... i could not take it anymore... i was too alone.. i was becoming schizophrenic... all these conversations in my head

sorry... if i seem useless... i guess....
i'm useless without u...
when i have nothing to do, i... flash thoughts in my mind..
hopefully we get to go out again..

HOPE...
everytime... its going to fail me again...
hoping too much... haiz..

sorry if u read this...
baby here is a stupid guy...