Its been 20 days sinced i last seen this page. 20 days and i've changed a total 180 degrees. And it seems that i'm not getting any younger. 13 more days till i'm 17. And i've gotten a chalet from my mom. for that whole weekend. and i dont know who should i call. i feel like i want to live alone for that weekend.. just locking myself indoors. no one with me. i dont know why. i think i might need that time to think out things. if i call people, i cant have a bbq. so wad's the use of calling people. chalets are meant to be fun aint it.? but to me i got this feeling that i've never had before. this weird feeling that everything. everything is going to be so. low for me. 4 days of chalet. quiet i guess. its been really weird of me too these few days. i dont know when would i blog again. so i guess i'll write one long one. but nothing from my life. my personal life.

though i guess i should somehow start with it. I'm a virgo. i'm a emotional person. i guess.

its said that the happiest people in the world are the saddest people. and the saddest people usually are the happiest. if you get what i mean. yup. i'm going to type everything in complete words for now.

Throughout my 16 years, i do not know why. i was supposed to be a good boy but i never was. i am a jerk right now. trying to figure out my life. supposely, i'm am happy with it. everytime i get scolded, i just kept quiet. it seems that things are just so messy. I get jealous too easily so i never got into relationships that well i guess. until that events that happened. well nevermind. i'm starting to drift from myself i guess.

it seems to me that everything has been so messed up... so... i am so free now... to think more on things. And when i see things, i take them for what they are. I........... AGRH... i'll blog soon promise... before i go for my chalet... before my bdae...