I was really tired last night.
taking so much.
filming so much.
I dont noe what happened last night..
it was like I... i took so much of fighting yesterday, i dont noe whether i'm alright now..
at least some ppl feel much better.
i was like thinking alot again yesterday..
so i chose to be quiet..
i chose to shut myself in.. felt so much better in the end when i went out into the night.

reached home.. and it was like Hmm.. haha First time JO talked to me first la.. i was abit angry cuz mich DIN reply AGAIN... haha but i knew that it was my fault i guess... BUT... haiz...i juz don noe why... i barely smiled when my frens were all joking while wallking out of NP...

^u can see from above that my thoughts are like scrambled.... totally sorry bout it... i juz dont noe what to think or what not think now... guess y so many ppl goes to the Institute of Mental Health is beause they think like that... Hmmm i'm thinking again..

oh well.. gotta go for sign language lesson again.today.. hopefully i can catch the beat of the music...

i dont noe what's gone wrong.
its like i have been thinking too much.
things keep going on like never-ending songs.
it juz seem like my mind keeps racing.
and i dont know why.
my heartbeat races and i dont noe y.
i think about nothing.
and its scaring me.
i wanna be myself.. again once more..
just one last time..
its like i DONT know why i've become like that.
i wanna stop. i just wanna stop
it keeps gushing back in volumes..
how i use to be.
the time that i could feel.
the time where i was cheerful.chubby.and cherry.
LOL
ok.. maybe not that time... that is like so sick la..
haha Hmmm.. my mood swing is over!...
yeah!... LOL wonder where i got those things from...
maybe its just the feeling that something is missing.. something isnt RIGHT.. something.. that i think i missed out... i think so...going to game now! LATER dudes!.. and GALS!