i'm not myself again. Its like music affects me so much.. i feel so like dying.. like disappearing.. into thin air.. i don noe...i'm so aimless. so crappy.. i don noe... i can barely act out my life now... i don noe.. i feel that i need sometime to think... and im not supposed to shut up in sch... i need someone freal close.. i need that someone... but... that someone i need is not known to me... i'm not close... i tRY to make ppl happy... i try to work but the things that go thru my mind now.. is all the things that i did the last week and during the holidays... i am so damn tired.... Smile willie... smile... haiz... it hurts again... don worry.. its my heart this time.. i swear... i don like breaking my words so don worry.. this song.. in my head right now... i din mean to DL it.. but it now seems too nice to not hear.. the pain i feel.. Tears and Pain.. the stabbing comes like so suddenly, i'm so cold from fear. fear of losing. i don noe wad will i do this time if i lost. lost again.. i'll go mad.. end my life. end my terrible days. the horror i imagine..sigh.. i rest tonight. i'm sorry.. i don noe wad else to think.. should things like go on?
i don noe... things that i do nvr seems to work.. move in one piece.... i'm so so tired... help me... i need help... i feel so weak.. so helpless.. so painful.. so useless... so fragile...so open... like a target.. broken with holes.. like a useless person... sigh..sigh...sigh
what in the world should i do?