i am shit. not to mention i screwed myself up so much that i sucked so bad. somethings shouldnt have been don like that. i shouldnt have broke down infront of my dad.. shouting at him in the car. its been my fault i'm sorry. but i still cant trust u guys. i nearly. let out my word... that i have problems of my own. that they needed to worry for me again.

i'm so down.. why do i like to torture myself again? torture myself to the point where my heart feels like stopping. to the point that i feel that why do i like continue to be like that.
i.i.... how to put it to words to u?.. i am a person that has very little words. and i'm sick in class.. i'm an ass... idiot....