Hmmm.... haiz.. some ppl can shout out... some people cry... but i cant... haiz... when i'm down... i can nvr shout... nvr cry.... i cant... but onli at times... i do... when i'm all alone..all.. dark... den i will tear.. haiz... when i don talk... i juz think... so i try to talk more....so that i wont think...

but then my mom... is crazy... she wants me to shut up/.... for wad? i talk too much? sigh.... i do not know... i DO NOT... man... if i shut up... i wont talk that much again... my frens are noticing that i'm changing alot too... man.... i dont know how to control myself...can i just hurt myself... can i just... no... dammit.....don do it.... my promise

my eyes are tired... they need to be taken out and rested...my heart needs to be replaced... cuz its damaged.... its not easy....

though i smile and my friends are near, its a lonely time of day.

it hits me now and then... many things that i do.. i still cant force myself to forget... the past and the present...sigh....

had a weird dream last night.... and the night before... everyone had that... person inside... every dream... dammit..... cant talk today again...

don feel like talking...

falling sick too... i don noe wad to do...my brain is so psinful of thinking.... i'm in pain.... for wad... i juz dont know.... i juz need some time... to think again... freak i'm at fault again... freak man... wad the hell.... sigh....

hell.... maybe i wont talk that well... i dont care.... if we lose den it shall be... whatever...

i'm juz sad cuz u are too... im thinking cuz u are too... bloody devil... don copy him... its nothing nice to copy about...

i need a punching bag.