i'm tired of all these. i noe... some of u might know some things that u might not need to noe... might not have needed to know.. i should not have talked.. i shouldnt have said anything. shouldnt have said a word.. and lived in this world of hatred..

i should not like. that thing inside of me... AN IDIOT..the bloody devil.. ARGH... i wanna feel pain.. but i'm bounded by a thing that i cannot break.. from what i see.. i'm just trying to hand me down...thinking now that... ARGH... maybe... i should juz cross the road tmr without looking... den... i wont feel anymore pain... RIGHT after one long hurt... but it really much better then now... i cant seem to find the thing that hurts me... ARGGHHH!!! DAmmit...

so long it takes me...
to try to forget....
but should i give up?
should i tell myself that i need that time...


i really don noe wad's happening...im losing control of myself... i'm falling apart... like a machine... like a worthless soul.. think i shouldve sold my soul to the devil when i had the chance.. at least... my heart would not feel this now... haiz...

was looking for hitler's picts today... don noe y.... but i din find them.. i remembered my teacher... my history teacher describing the way he commited sucide... a gunshot to his head... haiz.. don noe... think i'll not sms , talk or im that much tmr... i'll be going home early... a promise that i've made...

its u who is making me tear..
the unknown makes me fear..
though there might not be enough light,
i hope that i'll put up a fight.

here i come back.darken streets, liveless soul. here i come.